...Saturday, November 23, 2013
Life's been great so far. Ups and downs were unavoidable but YOLO!
Work all weekday and party all weekend. :)
Feels great to blog again... but nah! no time for this shit. HAHA!
I hope everyone's doing fine!
...Friday, December 09, 2011
In memories of Ms Jacqueline Ho ♥To be truthful, I've never cried for a funeral before.
but this time round, it seems like we've lost a friend.
This week of stressing over MST & saddening over Jac's death..
was indeed a torture for all of us.
never a day enough of sleep,
never a day our eyes wasn't filled with tears,
never a moment we wasn't thinking about you,
because everywhere, facebook twitter news, was all about you.
why of all, its you?
why did your heart gave way?
6th December,
we were informed to head over MLT1 for an important announcement after test.
hundreds of students filled the hall with noises.
but never did we realised all the lecturers are holding back their tears.
and never did I thought, this announcement was the worse of all, and the hardest fact to accept.
I'll never forget how Ong Kung Yew broke the news to us and with all the other lecturers in the lecture hall.
he went "how many of you actually know Jacqueline Ho?" and most of us raised our hands.
"ok good, so almost all of you know who is she"
"so, Jacqueline actually collapsed outside her office yesterday in the morning and we called up the ambulance and had her sent to the hospital.... and few hours later about 3pm her heart actually gave way and she died"
that moment of extreme shock, that moment of unable to believe, we went HUH!
and what's left was complete silence. and the sight of tears. after that.
we completed 3 papers, and the remain 3 papers, we simply do not have any mood for it.
even if Jac didn't want us to be like this, we still couldn't help it.
you leaving was a big loss to all of your dearest.
8th December,
we prepared a bouquet of white roses (thanks to xiong's bro),
a photo of us with you,
and 8 letters from 8 of us.
after FSM paper, we headed to Singapore Casket with lots of buses.
SP students filled the entire area.
you even have to queue ! heard that some even gotta queue 2 floors down.
proceeded on to pray.. to take a last look at you..
Dear Jac,
you look so different.
without your smile, its just so different.
but inside us, you're still the pretty, bubbly lecturer, friend of us :)
9th December,
woke up especially early. because nothing was more important than sending you off the last time. giving you our last respect. saying the final goodbye.
even MST wasn't important anymore!
couldn't hold back my tears upon seeing the van with your pic,
your cremation. how your daughter cried.. those recollections of memories.
and what your sister in law told us. and that's how wonderful you are :)
May you leave in peace, still watching over your loved ones/us somewhere, somehow.
PS: i'm glad our bouquet of flowers was right on top of your coffin, and cremate together with you
glad that you've mark our papers, your final piece of work, and hoped we did you proud.
knowing your last message sent to a friend, was "I'm so happy christopher passed!"...
he should be grateful to you by not giving up on him.
but glad that he did it, and did not waste your time and effort!
we'll never see your smile again..
we'll never listen to your stories once more..
we'll never see how you get angry but still joke about it..
we'll never be able to say goodbye & take care after PR lessons..
we'll never see how fanciful your gel nails are..
and I wouldn't be able to see how shock you were when I wore a skirt.
Thanks for all your teachings,
your specially crafted module and written notes..
your direct tips that always guided us through exams..
your persistent in argueing with the school to bring 60 of us to phuket..
and so many other stuffs...
the pic chloe posts still aches us,
because that was how beautiful you're as a mother
and how much she misses you.
we'll remember & miss you lots :)
Wherever you've gone,
Celebrate life everywhere as what you did,
tell us that you're fine. :)
一路走好!
Our smiles were put up for you.
because im sure that's the last thing you would wanna see on us :)
...Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Used to keep blog updated about my life, events, so that 10 years down the road I'll still remember the happy times together. but god seemed to lay a road of stones/glasses, and its either I walk with wounds, or I'm stuck. F!
Life's in a mess that I don't know what the fuck I'm thinking about. I think I'm crazy.
Who am I really?
What do I want?
What do I need?
Why am I like this?
Why are things going this way?
Where did the truths went?
Why are lies everywhere?
Why must life be that miserable?
What I have to do?
...
...
...
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the list goes on and on...
because I have question marks everywhere.
its mind fucking.
...Sunday, May 01, 2011
QUICK UPDATE!Blog been dead for months! hahah! like lazy only.
Basically I've been busy enjoying my holidays....
lots and lots of things happened, and I didnt have the mood to blog at all.
I shall blog on major events and ignore the minor ones.
Went for a school trip on CRUISE
(23-25 March) with all my loves.
My first time on cruise... a pretty short one, yet a memorable one (:
the first night.. we get to board the ship only around 10! the queue was fucking long, and we was fucking pekcek I think. LOL so we just played around etcetc! Explored the ship after that then went back to room for give presents time! :DD gave each of them a mini masquerade for our dinner. It represents SZB! 9 of it and its definitely unique cause I DIY-ed. tedious job indeed! but i likeee. hahha!
they are molesting me with their feets!
fail jumpshot. HAHA!then blablabla, explore explore explore, went to the galaxy of stars and was asked to play games by the host! hula hoop & limbo, my dear got champion for hulahoop! LOL and all of us fail the limbo. hahh! blablabla again, and they went to sleep! but dear and I went to the deck for "hurricane" session. walao, the wind was.... FUCKING STRONG. endless supply of wind!
stayed till 4 before heading back to our cabins, and woke up at 6+ the next morning!
second day, nothing much in the day. breakfast, sharing session, tour the laundry & kitchen area, casino tour, then came the highlights of the entire trip. our D&D, choco madness party and disco! :D Fun and endless of fun!
lazy to elaborate much... but I had a good sleep thanks to my bolster :P
♥
hate to go back to sg that fast! really enjoyed even though its a superrrr short trip. cause I can do without a phone, yet have endless fun! never to forget.
@ Choco Madness Party
@ DISCO
@ D&D
Singapore polytechnic (:
Immediately after alighting, cabbed home to change bag everything and headed off for SS chalet!
(25-27 March) . I was sooooo tired. paiseh ._. had movie, "suckerpunch" which I dont really understand what its talking about! then cycle over to changi village for nasi lemak. After that I really k.o-ed! next day waited for bra and went for WILD WILD WET! :D
Sunshines! Created since 2009.BBQ @ night, celebrated shifa's & my birthday! Thank youuuu!
♥I like the never ending candles! hahhah!
.... continued on another post for more updates on birthday celebration! :D
...Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Full of ENERGYMet up with yun after such a long time.
always remember how we met in maple at first,
how we became friends, gossipers, how we ton together. etc etc!
it's just endless memories. (:
since 2006 (:we went food republic for lunch + dinner.
not knowing where to go, we went over to the MRT map and wanted to find somewhere to head to.
some sampat face I captured. LOLSingapore is just so FUCKING SIAN seriously.
so we ended up not going anywhere, but stay at harbourfront eh coffee club la kopi. chitchat.
chatted almost 3hours. endless stuff to talk lar. :P
the same sampat stuff we do over years & years.oh yah! she had some DAMN THE SHIT SMALL phone, its even smaller than my camera screen!
its x10 mini? walao, cmi. cui!
SEE!blackberry bold VS x10 minithen earlier on, I was thinking whether to make a trip down to visit this FRIEND of mine, lavina.
cause someone angry angry yesterday ah. hai.
+ she miss my face too much I think, no choice but to show face. HAHA!
and I really did made a trip down to hougang. ulu shit. its was 830pm.
took a train to buangkok, then exit wrong side, U turn, take bus, few stops. reaching there at 930.
clementi VS hougangdon't know whether if I did surprised her or not. hahh!
kee siao. I stay clementi, hougang is like JB like that. ulu ttm. but fun though.
her house is just chaotic. LOL full of rubbish with her and her bro + the friend.
if only my house were that noisy. at least there's some accompany.
not like every night, you're just alone with your computer.
you look at it, you talk with it, you play with it, you eat with it. hai!
left too cute. right too sot.
like know each other v long like that.that's the bro friend. LOL he's playing my itouch.
earlier on he was playing with my cam, jitao spam picture.
the bro played my itouch too, and they ask me "why are you going home". LOL
anyway, went home at around 11pm, only to reach home around 1230. + walking.
feed downstair eh cat yi xia, time passes kinda slow today. I like (:
...Monday, March 14, 2011
Just being bored.have not really been going out nowadays.
I've been very lazy.
I've been complaining of being bored.
I've only lived 18+ years of my life, and i'm whining.
didnt join them for club for the past 2 days.
partly, I'm trying to save every single $ I can. cause there's quite a lot to spend this few months.
In addition, club's getting quite bored unless there's more people.
and PH, rather squeezy. but I like the fact that entrance is FOC.
why doesn't singapore have more nightlife activities?
I'm glad I'm packed for the next few weeks!
14th - work 5-10
15th - out with yap yunyun.
16th - shop with szb
17th - work 12-5
18th - shop with szb
19th - dinner with relative.
20th - work 10-5
22nd - pre check-in for cruise at parkmall
23rd-25th - CRUISE with Singapore Polytechnic.
25-27th - CHALET with SS.
29th - Ice skating!
30th - My Birthday celebration with SZB + class BBQ
1st - 3rd Apr - Indonesia.
I JUST LIKE MY SCHEDULE. A LOT.
came across this video in fb, that consists of a few sentences which seems true.
明明很想哭，却还在笑。
明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。
明明很想留下，却坚定地说要离开。
明明很痛苦，却偏偏说自己很幸福。
明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了。
明明放不下，却说他是他，我是我。
明明舍不得，却说我已经受够了。
明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话。
明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶，却高昂吊着头。
明明已经无法挽回，却依旧执着着。
明明知道自己很受伤，却说你不必觉得欠我的。
明明“伪装”着很累，却还得依旧着。。。
为的只是隐藏自己的脆弱，即使很难过，也会装得无所谓。。
只是不愿别人看见自己的伤口，不想让自己周围的人担心，不想让别人同情自己。。
只想在心底独自承受，虽然心疼得难以呼吸，却笑着告诉所有人，“我没事的！”
然后静下来时，自己便笑话自己，何必把自己伪装得那么坚强？好像自己可以承受所有的苦难。。
...Thursday, March 03, 2011
SUM UP.Stopped blogging for the longest time ever I THINK.
EVERYDAY is like O LEVELS.
You barely have free time to do anything!
Basically for the whole February, its nothing but Chinese New year & Exams.
Chinese New Year,
SHORT AND SIMPLE.
No difference for family every year.
Other than sunshines, I've celebration with polyclique (9th Feb) too. (:
Which I can spend $10 on transport in a day!
I went out as early as 10am! but reaching the last destination its already 10pm.
Traveled to HOUGANG (lavina's), then TAMPINES (debbie's), then TIONG (makan + ping's), then mine.
at lavina's house.
at ping's house
debbie's cats!Then I had Sunshines's celebration (12th Feb) only visiting mine & kenneth's house.
Had steamboat together again. with lesser people now of course.
But we still had fun definitely ! (:
CLASS BONDING (14th Feb)we had a really great class bonding though not all were present.
making use of every single bit of money given to us!
4 large pizza(s)
STARBUCKS!
DHLFM/06 (:That's HOW MANY girls we had -.-
SP event. writing our wishes for earth day as well as valentine'sSo yup, it was valentine's too!
Wasn't one for me, but still happy for those who had a boyfriend!
Like the 2 of them here.
They were there despite its our class bonding. great boyfriends!
Shiyan's BF, TAIQUAN. one that's always there for her 24/7.
Noel's BF, JIANXIONG, surprises her in school and they're just meant for each other.
PING'S 19th CELEBRATION (2nd Mar)Make up celebration as her birthday falls on the 21st feb which is in the midst of exams.
We went for kbox @ only $6!
Then NewYork NewYork for dinner.
Bought a calvin klein bag for herrr.
It's March already. The thought of reaching 19 soon sucks. My last birthday with a ONE infront.
what the fuck! O:
...Saturday, January 29, 2011
JANUARYFinally found the time for a gasp of air.
I've been rather busy with presentation/ reports etc ever since the start of school!
and only have time to sum up this month when a holiday (Chinese New Year) is nearing.
Basically for
New Year Countdown this year, I've spent it with my poly clique instead of joining SS for clubbing. I think the view from the merlion @ the esplanade was really beautiful!
We were there super early, like 7pm. and people are already starting to occupy the good spots! That's why we are Singaporeans! Kiasu by nature. By 10pm, the different entrances to that area was blocked. giving us sufficient air/space to move around! phew.
31st December 2010
1st January 2011I ended 2010 as well as start 2011 with esther, lavina, hweeping, shirley, mengya, lukiat.
I swear Singapore is going to be over populated by bangala(s) instead of china(s)! I smell them wherever I go! ):
Then we walked over to chinatown for some famous porridge before heading to clarke quay river to slack. Mengya's Boyfriend joined us too! First train home in the morning!
It's when all of us were once strangers (:Supposed to work 12pm the next day, but I just couldn't drag myself up.
Needless to say, I skipped it. :P then joined SS to ton @peichi's crib.
NHPS'04/6B , BBQ GATHERING!2nd January 2011The following day, 2nd Jan, I had a Primary school gathering BBQ party!
Met up with charmaine first.
Amazed by how fast time passes, and how huge we've grown.
6 years ago!
6 years after!This was the largest gathering we've had compared to the others. 20 of us turned up!
Surprisingly, My form teacher turned up too, with his family! Not much diff, except lesser hair!
So much memories, so much fun. Till now.
Some of them already had their car license, and is driving a car! O:
Some are waiting for NS. like WOW! shocking enough.
SCHOOL REOPENS.3rd January 2011I don't dread school when there's fun (:
First event of the year, OPENHOUSE
5/6th January 2011! Together with esther, lavina, hweeping, michelle, shirley, we're either nominated or volunteer. Being able to disturb the newcomers was real fun! hahah!
Sadly, I can only dee siao but not promote my course. ): and after 4hours, we're tired already!
Just because we're repeating the same thing to different people. like some recorder.
Some CASS students drew these.POTLUCK @ Bra's crib8th January 2011 Sunshines.BUSY10th-29th January 2011Being busy the whole of 3 weeks was the only thing that comes to my mind the first thing I wake up, the last thing I slept. I had endless presentations, endless work to hand in.
and only to be able to find time in the night after school one day to buy my DSLR with lukiat.
I bought my Nikon D3100 @ $835 with camera bag, 8gb mem, tripod.
He bought his Nikon D90 @ $1424 with camera bag, 8gb mem, tripod, travel bag. LOL.
we had a total of 3 big bags.Kept my word to run on saturday's morning + breakfast with esther & her bf.
but I went immediately to sleep after the run. hahahah!
This shows how the lazy me, is becoming a fatter me! O:
On the other note, I'm gonna help aunt sell fishball again!
Chinese New year's round the corner, no clothes, no time, endless work ):
but angbao(s) will make me the happiest person on earth. :D
Exams round the corner too. starting from the..
16th: FOM
22nd: ECONS
24th: POM
1st: LAW
After all this shit,
I'm so gonna be fucking looking forward to cruise trip/ Indo trip/ My birthday/ all other plans.
and a year of polytechnic will soon pass. ):
...Friday, December 31, 2010
Last day of 2010!as well as HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY YAP RUIYUN! ♥
Before I get my butt out of this chair and head out for the countdown party that the whole world's gonna celebrate, I shall blog my last post of 2010. - although I don't know what to blog about! hahah!
A random Outing.
Went queensway shopping centre to buy fbt & settled laksa for dinner with kenneth yesterday.
also went vivo to buy some stuffs as well as 1 box of chocolate mint! I went home with $0.00 in my wallet. slacked at my house downstair before I went home @ 11pm.
New year New year New year... just like a cycle!
I remembered the year 2010 didn't really start off well till last few months (around oct) of the year! the year passed extremely fast I think. Seems like, the older I grow, the time passes even faster. Makes me start to feel that I'm growing old way to fast and I wanna be young again! There's definitely much less worries...
anyway, I yi shi xiang bu dao what to write, so I might edit the post!
Off to partyyyy!
...Thursday, December 30, 2010
Give me a break!Feeling pekcek at the moment so thought of writing some things to let me cool down.
Was pek cek due to FB lar, idiot! uploading pictures system fail big time man!
then my mother suddenly ask me stupid question, you know I change bulb not?
I haven't even enter my room yet + can't on the lights because my roommate sleeping.
as usual, i'm already pekcek, don't talk to me. I'll reply with a fucked up attitude.
then she scold me, say I never see the spoil bulb on the table, next time useless. wtf? no link.
Rot my day off on 28th dec (:
28th dec - 11hours.11 hours of straight work without break. How wonderful can that be! Just too busy too busy!
I was con to work somemore. swee!
despite all the unhappiness, it was my first time doing bar. cooool! but it was SUPER busy. and I had fun while busying!
Due to short of staff + busy, I didn't get to have break and therefore, didn't have both lunch & dinner.
but to my surprise, lukiat brought me koi during work. (he told me he would be coming).
Furthering my surprise, esther brought me some cakes shortly after! (she didn't tell me she was coming), which really surprises me. hahha! First time feeling so xinfu. got drinks & food.
then she waited for me to finish work before we head home. thanks loveee (:
mother kope a lot to eat! siann.
29th Dec 2010 - ECP Mengya's 20th!
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY XUE GAO-ER.
6 of us (:went ECP for some exercising - cycling! :D
been a long time since I cycle! I wanna buy a bike too!
old already cycle awhile, here ache there ache. terrible!
a pretty fun day thanks to the weather!
met up at bedok MRT, 1130am! Breakfast at the market before we head off!
sadly, pingping don't know how to cycle! the last time she cycled was 5 YEARS OLD. not 5 years ago! 13years ago. god!
without fail, we sure have people falling down etc.
but not 1, we had a DOMINO EFFECT. (:
shirley fall on esther, esther fall on me, before we 3 lie flat on the grass. (Y). swee! LOL.
Blueblacks here and there!
and shirley's slipper GG-ed! HAHAH
TRYING TO DO SOME STUNTS.
Had subway for lunch cum dinner before we decided to go for a walk at parkway parade.
My first time being there, sua gu sia! its toooooo ULU for me!
ping promoting water!
saw the energy bar?
Horny & I!
HAHAHAAH!
Fish & Puffer FishEnded the day off with a super long ride (196, 1 half hours) to clementi & walked home after that (: Us, being fishes, I randomly start a topic by saying I like angler fish cause it had a lightbulb and its cooool! Interesting fish righttt? and this fish beside me likes angler fish too. LOL pingping's face = scared dao! HAHAH! I was ... speechless!
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