...Friday, December 24, 2010
Put it in words.So I've actually just finished watching all those videos again.
regardless is it the video pingping made or the ones we took, it actually created memories.
I remember complaining everyday to many people about how I dreaded going school since the end of O levels. I dreaded school because I'm going to start all over again having no friends when Sunshines was my only lovee. I remembered crying over the fact that we would all be separated when my cousin asked me out, talking to me as she realised I wasn't very happy.
I walked into the class the first day with super unfriendly face (what they say), and as what yiru said, I wasn't quite sociable/willing to smile etc. I thought I was just going to sian throughout my 3 years of poly life. I had no motivation for school everyday. I slept throughout all lectures/tutorials, leaving my studies in danger, and even skipped schools.
With lots and lots of things happening in between a period of time, it was just miserable. I think some had realised i've become quieter. Just didn't wish to talk much at that time. 2nd thing that hit me was my GPA. although yup, I passed, but I feel that I didn't know how to explain to my cousins or whoever, it just wasn't satisfactory. Went to find soozhen for a talk that night, just the night before I was setting off to bintan. I just wished to have someone to talk to and not cooping at home all day long. Thanks girl. (:
I thought through everything, put down everything, gave up everything, and went for my bintan trip in the morning. Amazingly enough, I was able to enjoy myself real much. I came back with an especially happy mood. with a nonchalant attitude towards everything.
Although they didn't know anything, but they kind of accompanied me through.
My class were separated into 5 groups actually.
1: me, hweeping, noel, shirley, yiru, mengya (the chinese pai)
2: esther, michelle, debbie, lavina, rashidah, jieying (the ang mor pai)
3: shiyan, daphne, yini, crystal
4: huiwen & woonchi (the outcasted)
5: christopher, brian, weixiang (the guys)
but only 7 went for the bintan trip. Me, hweeping, noel, shirley, lavina, michelle, debbie. ahah!
so eventually, me and michelle group became even closer right after the trip. we were even closer, and became one whole clique when me and esther started walking to school everyday.
so now my whole clique consist of 12 people! O:
I know I'm just like the same person all over again last year, bias against one clique. (at that time was sunshines). but its 2 diff clique afterall. They will still forever be my sunshines (:
I'm such a friend siao. I know. Friends are my priorities. Quite bad that family aren't. Family stories are never ending, so I'm not going to elaborate.
So to all my polymates, you changed my mindset. changed my attitude towards polylife. and brought out the craziness I once had, again. I might be irritating sometimes, I might be noisy, I might be crazy, you might not even like me. But still, thanks for tolerating & everything. I'll be there for all my friends out there, regardless whether you need me or not. at least for now when I'm writing this post.
loveee,
sy.
5:18am
